Hweh, I feel like I should just drop a quick journal to update people on life. For those of you who follow/watch me on Tumblr this is very much nothing new.
Essentially once Round 3 of the Walking City OCT ended I stopped drawing for a while, played some videogames while I had a bunch of free time on my hands until my job started to get busy again. However they stationed me on Beverage Cart (I work at a Golf Course in Banquets - aka, cooking) which was pretty miserable and I was pretty miserable. Sitting around waiting for rich people to come buy so they can buy drinks/BBQed food was not what I went to Culinary School for.
Since there was a long time of me not working at ALL, coming back to that was... eeeeeh... I wasn't very happy. So I started looking for new work, found something, and now I am working in a gorgeous Italian Restaurant as a Fresh Pasta Cook (and I flout, so I'll help out on different stations as well, especially desserts). I have a tiny little area right next to the Pizza station where I make fresh pasta and the customers can watch QuQ It's fun but somewhat intimidating at times knowing that you're right in the open.
However since I work 52+ hour work weeks, I'm not around a whole lot and especially don't have much art time... which is why you haven't seen or heard from me in a while. Just doing what I can, making what I can, figuring out what I can... you know, such is life.
But I'm happy. I guess that's the most important part. I have my moments, but of course we all do, and I'm doing my best to overcome my anxieties and beat myself up less (...erm, literally). If I ever have free TIME, I'll look into counseling again, so no one worry about me, yes?
I miss you all, thank you so very much for all the support you've given me. You pushed me through yet another really difficult and talented OCT and for that I am eternally grateful, even if I almost died (yet again) working on it. Your comments have been so wonderful and mean so much to me! It's fantastic to know that even if I wasn't good enough... that my work was stilled enjoyed and appreciated. I got to meet and face so so so many talented and wonderful people to whom I wish all the best, even if I'm not around to chat anymore.
All the best, stay creative, love yourselves!