Alrighty Misses, Sirs, and dear Friends and allies!
I know aside from the occasional sketch dumps here and there I haven't been too active, and for many good reasons which I mainly won't dwell on... but yes.
Some of you may be aware of my mental health issues, which I've had for practically the past decade and a half. The past year n' a bit has been exceptionally tough and I was hoping that engaging myself in big changes with my life would help. I took chances and moved out with my wonderful friend, received a "promotion" at my workplace that essentially bumped me from kitchen prep to working 'on the line', which is actually making and serving the food that goes to the customer, things such as that. It was a struggle but for the most part, I've managed ok, which is great.
Since... maybe February or early March, I've spiraled down into a position where my health has been terrible. If I'm not at work, I'm in bed, essentially doing nothing because for a while there I was having a phase of insomnia where I wouldn't sleep for 2-3 days at a time. I wouldn't make plans with anyone and I would only really keep in constant with a small handful of people. An example of how bad it was, I had booked off a weekend which ended up with me spending 40 hours in bed, without eating, only getting up to use the washroom and some water. In that time I had undergone several cases of self harm and two situations where I was in so much distress that I had put my own life on the line.
So as of now, I am unemployed. I submitted my letter of resignation because my health has been right terrible. In September, I am going to start moving my belongings back to my parents' house... but will be having frequent visits until then just to keep myself in check. I'll start looking for work again in about a weeks time, for I will be out of town with my Parents up at my cottage.
I really hope to get back into my artwork rather than engaging with many failed attempts and disgrunted feelings because of it. While I love to hold request-livestreams (because it allows me to reach out to others while having 'gift' art to provide) I really want to move to my own personal projects that have been in the works for as long as a decade. So I'll likely back off from those for a bit and try to focus my creativity on my own work a bit more.
Essentially I guess this journal is to let people know how I'm doing and that I'll still be decently unavailable, especially on Deviantart. Also I suppose, if things were to go very south and I don't return to this site... people will put one and one together and realize where I am... or not I suppose. Not to scare anyone, of course QAQ;; Right now I am going to be safe with my parents and away from the city, the noise, work and it's craziness...
...so, yes! A little bit about me I suppose, for those who weren't aware that this was a thing.
Many wishes to you and your Family, be creative, get lots of food and sleep if you can... and of course, please be safe.